I am stupid.

Why do I do the things I do? I must be stupid, I am so selfish, most of the time. It is always about me, me, me. In relationships it matters most to me, how I feel, what I want, what I like, what I think. It is one thing to have a self worth, but quite another to put that worth above all else. We live in a world that is self absorbed, the "ME< ME< ME" generation. And I have performed well in it. Look around us, see for yourself, there they are on every corner, places to make yourself feel better about yourself. Have a problem in your marriage? Don't worry about that, buy yourself a $150,000 sports car, I mean you deserve it. "Don't have an HD 3D wafer thin, 70" LCD TV? What is wrong with you, how in the world do you watch football on your so yesterday 60" NON 3D thing? Go ahead it only cost $2000 you deserve it. It's what we do, to make ourselves feel better about ourselves. It is the American Way,. Have you said some not nice things to your spouse? Apologize, then buy yourself something nice, because you feel bad about hurting them. I saw a story on line yesterday about these new smart vending machines that are about to be seen everywhere. They have a "IPAD" type screen, a touch pad where you can make selections by not just brand, but ingredients, health statistics calories, .....You can even get cotton candy freshly put on the stick, freshly made pizza, breakfast tacos, Yes this fits in so well with our society of Me:Me:Me:. I remember when I was a kid and my dad would pull into a gas station to fill er up. At least one person would come to the car, and ask "Can I help you sir?" He would put gas in the car, wash the windshields, check the air pressure in the tires, check the oil level, all while being very polite and nice, In those days it was very uncommon to go through a "Drive Through" if you wanted to eat you had to park and go inside, (except for Jack In The Box, I believe they were the first, that I remember that had a drive through, I thought this was SO COOl, But back then my dad would not allow eating in the car, wow has that changed in our Fast paced, Me>Me>Me> world>)
I seem to be rambling, but I really do have a reason for this. What happened to the society where OTHERS came first? The motto :"The Customer is Always Right".
Jesus cared for everyone else more then He cared for himself. He went out of His way to talk to people in their lives. Have you ever read a scripture in the Bible where Jesus is complaining about something? "And Jesus said: "why is this floor so hard"? I am sure He did complain every once in a while, I mean He was human, but it had to be so seldom that no one even noticed. Our Lord was all about others, not Himself. If anyone ever could have been about Himself, it was Jesus. He was the SON of GOD. (Actually God Himself).
I am SO selfish, I look at my life and what am I surrounded with? Stuff, that makes me feel good. A nice TV, that I just Had to have, nice furniture, .............the list goes on and on.






Matthew 22:37-39

New Living Translation (NLT)

37 Jesus replied, “‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’[a] 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 A second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself
The second most important commandment after loving God with all your heart, is to love your neighbor as YOURSELF. If your as conceded as I am, that is a LOT of love. Love, care, be concerned with, serve, get to know, help, do nice things, share, be apart of, consider yourself equal not above, your neighbor. And we are all neighbors.
I have been made aware how selfish I have been for most of my life this week. I have had to do some "soul searching" and I am not to happy with what I have found.
I have lifted myself up, being proud of some of the things I do, I love to talk to the homeless that are on the streets, giving them my spare change when I have some. I have thought of myself as generous. But, now I look at myself and see how PROUD, SELFISH, CONCEITED, and RIGHTEOUS I am.
Who would no this better then my family? I am so sorry, I don't deserve you, wow, how can you even care about me anymore?
I want to change, I believe God has let me see this about myself for a reason, so that I can do something about it. This world was not made with me in mind, not just me, but for us all. Jesus died for me, but not me alone. He died for us all. Heaven was not made for just me, but for all who know Him.
If your a person that I have hurt in someway with my attitude, I am sorry, please forgive me. I am nothing, I have nothing, I am worth nothing without Him.
Paul called himself the "Chief of Sinners", because that is how he felt. He had forgiveness issues, I am sure, I mean he had killed in God's name, killed Jesus followers, who he thought were sacrilegious and wrong. He learned how wrong he was in a dramatic way. But he saw his mistakes, turned around and became one of the greatest leaders of the new testament church.
I am sorry to break your bubble, but it is not "All About You". It is not All About me, either, it is all about Him. With His help, we need to get the "I" out of our lives and replace it with: "Him" Him first, everyone else second and "Me" last, not third, but LAST.
I needed to hear this, as God gave it to me today, if this is only for me, bare with me, but I don't think it is. It is so easy, in the "Me>ME>ME" world to fall into that trap, but it is a trap.
So let us quit thinking about our needs, our wants, our troubles, and let us focus on what is really important, our neighbors, our friends, our families, our church, our mission, HIS story.